My RE's office called today with the negative beta results, as expected. I haven't had a total emotional breakdown yet, but I am throwing a little pity party for myself tonight. I just keep asking myself the same question-why couldn't it be me? Why wasn't I the one to win the infertility lottery?
Why couldn't I have been the one who got pregnant. . .
on my honeymoon
on my first cycle charting
after preseed and Fertility Blend
in the first year
on the cycle before going to the RE
after my HSG
from a natural IUI
after my lap
on clomid
on injects
on a break cycle
on IVF#1
on an IUI converted from IVF #2 or #3
on IVF#4
Why the hell couldn't it have been me?
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Karen, I wish I had an answer. This is just so unfair. I have secretly hoped that I might be one of the "lucky" ones at so many of those milestones too. I am so sorry, my friend. ((Hugs))
I'm so sorry. I ask those same questions almost daily. Sometimes it's unbearable. Hang in there and we'll be here.
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i am so sorry, karen.
I'm so sorry Karen.
Why does it have to be so complicated, so impossible, so unavoidable? I love the way you wrote this post. It so clearly shows all the opportunities missed, all the times others have posted that they were saved from the next step and sometimes, it seems, their miracles came at the expense of others'.
I wish I had an answer or something at least a little better than "I don't know". It really and truly is NOT fair. I'm so very sorry Karen.
I am so sorry. This is not fair. ((hugs))
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