Monday, November 17, 2008

Happy Birthday to Me (and I Actually Mean It)

Today I turned 39 and, you know, it wasn't so bad. Last year was a tough birthday for me. Turning 38 put me into the advanced, advanced maternal age category. For my clinic, that meant a major nosedive in success rates for IVF. I had just had IVF#2 converted to yet another useless IUI after developing a dominant follicle. I knew IVF#3 was coming, and I had really hoped to start it before my 38th birthday, as though my chances would immediately drop upon reaching November 17. But my E2 level was too high to cycle so I had to go on BCPs instead and my cycle was pushed back to December. I could feel time slipping away from me and my chances of a pregnancy along with it.

At 39, having stopped fertility treatments, I have virtually no chance of getting pregnant, but amazingly it's OK. I guess that's one of the benefits of choosing adoption. It's changed the nature of time for me. Instead of feeling like time is taking me farther away from a child, now I feel like it's bringing me closer to one. Each day that passes is one day closer to meeting our child, so I'll make a wish (non-TTC related), blow out my candles, and eat my cake with a smile. Bring on a new year!

P.S. I just got back from a family trip to Disney World and I'm a bit behind on my blog reading and commenting. I will work hard to catch up this week.

7 comments:

Mrs. Shoes said...

Happy, happy birthday! I hope thix year brings your heart's desire.

Me said...

Happiest of Happy Birthdays to you!

Jill said...

Happy Birthday! Hope you have a much better year.

Heather said...

Happy birthday!

Lost in Space said...

Happy Birthday to a fellow Scorpio. (; Once again, your perspective is amazing. May your birthday wish take you beyond your wildest dreams.

WaterBishop said...

Happy Birthday!!

Barb said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! So glad and hopeful for your adoption journey! I hope you had a great time in WDW! Hope you enjoyed our weather. :)