Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Miracles happen. . .

Why do people think that telling stories about someone they know will give others hope? I just read a post about some woman's SIL on an IF board I frequent. Maybe I'm just cynical and bitter, but hearing about someone doing a few IUIS and getting pg does squat for me. I'm on IVF#3 and my ovaries are uncooperative yet again. But I'm supposed to feel hopeful because someone else got knocked up on IUI #4? I'm happy for the girl, but that whole "miracles happen, don't give up" crap is rubbing me the wrong way tonight. I wish I could think of something sarcastic to write back. Until then I'll just wallow in my bitterness until my attitude improves.

As you may have guessed, IVF#3 isn't starting off well. My RE's office called today and said my estrogen level was too high. The nurse said I won't get any good follies if my estrogen is too high. Now my RE wants to put me on birth control pills for a few weeks to suppress me. Then I may be able to start stims. I have no idea how the estrogen and suppression tie together. I was too shocked when the nurse called to ask any questions. I'm going to call back tomorrow for my bloodwork numbers and a clearer explanation. I was really looking forward to sticking myself with a needle tonight too!

4 comments:

Yodasmistress said...

Keep us updated on what you find out on the E2! Lots of hugs and keep your chin up. You'll get there. It just make take an excruciatingly long time and between now and then you may want to stab a few fertiles to death but you won't b/c there is no IVF in jail. And so you might feel somewhat frustrated by this lack of ability to carry out your violent desires but it's ok, you'll make it through, and we'll hold your hand on the way.

journey to junior said...

shit. i'm so sorry to read this.

when an IVF cycle isn't textbook, it is devastating. especially when you have to POSTPONE it. UGH. i'm so sorry!

and hear hear on your first comment. every case of IF is different and it is only through complete and utter ignorance that anyone thinks (and says) otherwise.

big ((hugs)).

bluehairedwoman said...

i agree that those stories don't offer much hope since we're all so different in what caused our IF.

i hope going on the BCP for a few weeks will give your e2 a chance to level off so you can get yourself a nice response after sticking yourself with all the needles. :)

((hugs))

Pamela Jeanne said...

I know just how you're feeling. Just once I'd like some evidence that miracles are not reserved just for other people...