Babies, babies, everywhere. . .

I'm not pregnant. AF kind of gave it away, but the blood test confirmed it last week. Of course, since getting my umpteenth BFN, I've been bombarded with babies: babies at Starbucks, babies in the news, babies in the lunch room. Along with those babies are stories of how quickly all their moms got pregnant-3 cycles, 1 cycle, 9 cycles. The 9 cycles probably felt like forever. Ha! Try 30+ cycles.

The only time I like hearing about someone's BFP lately is if it's one of my online IF friends. Their BFPS fill me with joy.

Cramps and Computer Problems

My computer is fried. DH brought it in for service because it was acting weird and the Best Buy people told him the motherboard is toast. They sent it to Gateway. It's been about 10 days since he brought it in and there's no sign of it coming back soon. It's amazing how much I depend on the stupid thing for my job and for keeping up with my online support group. I'm going slightly crazy without it. I neeeeeed it!

On the TTC front, I started getting the familiar pre-AF cramps yesterday. I'm 10 dpo and if I'm on the normal schedule then AF should show in the next 2-3 days. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, but I'm having some serious doubts that this IUI worked.

Tough Weekend

I spent the weekend at a wake and funeral for my DH's fellow officer. The whole thing is heartbreaking. I can't even begin to imagine his fiancee's pain. If it were DH, God forbid, I don't think I could do it. How do you go on with life after losing the person with whom you planned to spend it? Even if DH and I never have kids, at least we have each other.